As the New Year draws near, its time to take stock of the year gone by, reminisce the memories, look back with fondness at some and not so much at the others.

While we think and bid adieu to a year which was packed with 12 months of our life, we also look ahead for the one coming soon and usher it in with hope, anticipation and dreams. The places we want to see, the things we want to buy, the heights we want to scale and the time we want to spend with loved ones. Every single person has some plan or the other lined up for the new year. While resolutions are the much hyped, much abused and much clichéd to-do things for a new year, fact is in some secret corner of our heart we still make those futile attempts at drawing up that Fancy “New Year’s Resolution” and then sincerely believe this is the year I am going to turn things around.

Well I am no different , or as I like to call myself, I am a hopelessly optimistic person.

But then as the practical side, (the fledgling part of me with a very feeble voice) takes over, my New Year Resolution this year looks less like a personal development Plan and more like a doable and realistic list with more emphasis on the experiences of life rather than the PDP or material pleasures.

And while I was in the process of doing the same, I decided to do something different this year. And what possibly could I do differently? I asked myself.

Well of late I have been questioning mortality and the existence of life, trying to look for a deeper meaning of life beyond the every day mundaneness. So I asked myself, what if the world were really coming to an end in 2012, what if 2012 were really my last year on planet earth in this avatar, what would I do then, would I still be interested in learning French as a language(had been on my New Year’s Resolution for quite a while)? Will I still want to do more of Yoga and meditation on a daily basis or would I just want to eat, drink and make merry till the sun or the moon shines.

This aspect of a finality to the things I could and could not do made me re-evaluate a lot of things in my life and I was surprised to see what the end list really looked like.

Thanks to my surprise(pleasant and otherwise) the list had sent me into a cycle of introspection and while I deal with my demons (and angels) it appears I will take a little more time to scrub and polish my list of New Year’s Resolution 2012.

In the meantime I would love to hear what resolutions are creeping up my friends’ lists.